“I don’t know—”

“Not drunk.” Étienne smiles. He’s the only one stil sitting. “Just . . . happy.”

“Happy birthday drunk,” Josh says.

“Happy,” Étienne repeats. “Come on, Anna. I know the perfect place to celebrate.”

And because it’s him, my mouth answers before my brain does. “Okay,” I say.

We agree to meet later tonight. What was I thinking? I’d much rather stay in and hold a Michel Gondry marathon. I’m ooky with nerves, and it takes ages

to find something to wear. My wardrobe isn’t exactly stocked with clothes for barhopping. When I final y come down to the lobby, everyone’s already there, even Étienne. I’m surprised he’s on time for once. His back is to me.

“Al right,” I say. “Let’s get this party started.”

At the sound of my voice, he turns around. And his head nearly snaps off.

I’m in a short skirt. It’s the first time I’ve worn one here, but my birthday feels like the appropriate occasion. “Woo, Anna!” Rashmi fake-adjusts her

glasses. “Why do you hide those things?”

Étienne is staring at my legs. I tuck my coat around myself self-consciously, and he startles and bumps into Rashmi.

Maybe she’s right. Maybe I should wear skirts more often.

Chapter thirty-four

The band in the club is rocking so hard, screaming guitars and furious drumming and shouting lyrics, I can hardly hear myself think. all I know is that I feel good. Real y good. Why have I never drunk before? I was such an idiot—it’s not a big deal. I total y understand why people drink now. I’m not sure what I’ve been drinking, but I do know it was something fruity. It started out disgusting, but the more I drank, the better it got. Or the less I noticed it. Something like that. Man, I feel weird. Powerful.

Where is Étienne?

I scan the dark room, through the thrashing bodies of disil usioned Parisian youth, getting their anger out with a healthy dose of French punk rock. I

final y find him leaning against a wal talking to Mer. Why is he talking to her? She laughs and tosses her curly hair. And then she touches his arm.

Meredith has turned into an Arm-Toucher. I don’t believe it.

Before I know it, my feet are propel ing the rest of my body toward them. The music thrums through my veins. I stumble over some guy’s feet. He curses

at me in French, and I mumble an apology as I lurch away. What’s his problem?

Étienne. I need to talk to Étienne.

“Hey.” I shout in his face, and he flinches.

“Jeez, Anna. Are you okay? How much have you had to drink?” Mer asks.

I wave my hand.Three fingers. Four fingers. Five. Something like that.

“Dance with me,” I say to Étienne. He’s surprised, but he hands Mer his beer. She fires me a dirty look but I don’t care. He’s more my friend than hers. I grab his hand and pul him onto the floor. The song changes to something even rowdier, and I let it take me over. Étienne fol ows my body with his eyes.

He finds the rhythm, and we move together.

The room spins around us. His hair is sweaty. My hair is sweaty. I grab him closer, and he doesn’t protest. I writhe down his body to the beat. When I

come up, his eyes are closed, his mouth slightly parted.

We match each other thrust to thrust. The band launches into a new song. Louder and louder. The crowd is in a frenzy. Étienne screams the chorus with

the rest of them. I don’t know the words—even if I spoke French, I doubt I could make out the lyrics over the roar—al I know is this band is SO MUCH

BETTER than the Penny Dreadfuls. HA!

We dance until we can’t dance any longer. Until we’re gasping for breath and our clothes are soaked and we can hardly stand up. He leads me to the

bar, and I grip onto it with everything left in me. He fal s next to me. We’re laughing. I’m crying, I’m laughing so hard.

A strange girl shouts at us in French.

“Pardon?” Étienne turns around, and his eyes widen in shock when he sees her. The girl has sleek hair and a hard face. She keeps yel ing, and I pick

out a few choice swearwords. He replies in French, and I can tell by his stance and tone of voice that he’s defending himself. The girl shouts again, gives him a final sneer, then spins away and pushes her way back through the pulsing mass.

“What was that about?” I ask.

“Shite. Shite.”

“Who was that? What happened?” I lift my hair to get some air on my neck. I’m hot. It’s so hot in here.

Étienne pats his pockets, panicked. “Fuck. Where’s my phone?”

I fumble in my purse and pul out my cel . “USE MINE!” I shout over the music.

He shakes his head. “I can’t use yours. She’l know. She’l f**king know.” He pul s at his hair, and before I know it, he’s making his way for the door. I’m on his heels. We burst through the club into the cold night.

Snowflakes are fal ing. I don’t believe it. It never snows in Paris! And it’s snowing on my birthday! I stick out my tongue, but I don’t feel them hit. I stick it out farther. He’s stil searching frantical y for his phone. Final y, he finds it in a coat pocket. He cal s someone, but they must not pick up, because he screams.

I jump backward. “What’s going on?”

“What’s going on? What’s going on? I’l tell you what’s going on. That girl in there, the one who wanted to kil me? That’s El ie’s roommate. And she saw us dancing, and she’s cal ed her, and she’s told her all about it.”