Bodat was one of Alex’s World of Warcraft buddies who had helped us with a case in Natchez. He was a couple of years younger than Alex and lived in Mississippi. The pasty-skinned kid was planning to attend Tulane in the fall, which was where Alex was going for his doctorate, now that he was finished with probation. Bodat was a hacker wannabe and had a knack for scanning and compiling data. He was working hard to learn the back doors of computer hacking and also had a serious case of hero worship for Alex, which he tried hard to keep hidden. It was cute. But . . . Bodat. I sighed softly.

Alex and Eli put a blanket over me and went into the kitchen to prepare a late lunch.

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• • •

“Why do you think Janie is your sister?” Alex asked.

Ayatas halted, spoon halfway to his mouth. It was filled with vanilla ice cream and blueberry-mango cobbler fresh out of the oven. Lunch had been carefully polite, with no mention of relationships or how Soul might have reacted to Ayatas shooting at me. Mostly the meal had been guy chatter about the weather, the difference between an Arizona winter and a Louisiana one, and sports teams. Until now.

He placed the spoon back in the bowl and looked from one to the other of us as if trying to figure us out. “According to her history, Jane appeared from the woods. My sister disappeared in a snowstorm, many years past. We are long-lived. Her body was never recovered. Why would Jane not have a long-lost brother?”

“Because she’s a lot older than she looks.”

“Alex?” This was not a topic of conversation I had expected to be having. This was my most personal information and Alex was on the verge of giving it all away. I put down my spoon, again sick at my stomach. Though the food, and maybe the OTCs, had helped my headache some, the pain wasn’t gone, and nausea was one of the symptoms I suffered with the migraine-like agony.

Alex didn’t look at me. “I mean, dude, she looks maybe twenty-five, but she’s old. She could be thirty.”

I wanted to laugh. He sounded like a typical teen, though he was twenty now himself and growing up. Mostly. And he was, not so subtly, pumping Ayatas.

“If we are siblings,” Ayatas said, picking up his spoon again without looking my way, “then Jane is much older than twenty-five.”

The words hung on the air for a dozen heartbeats. The odd emotions welled up in me again, a vortex of feelings that swirled together. Things like, I’m not alone. The People still exist. They came for me. Finally. Finally. Finally. Mixed with the hope and the fear and the unanticipated possibilities was a wash of anger and suspicion. Why now? Why did you wait so long? Only to use me? Is the skinwalker—the one who taught me to kill my first man and who pushed me into the snow to live or die—still alive? Is my mother still alive? I had posited that the skinwalker gene was X-linked, like with witches, passing on the mother’s X chromosome. I had assumed that I’d gotten the gene from my father, passed down from his mother, but for Ayatas to be a skinwalker, and my full-blooded brother, my mother had to be a skinwalker too, since any brother would have gotten his only X chromosome from her.

I shoved down on all the emotions, useless passions that were obscuring the rational, reasonable parts of me, the parts that might let me find my way through the maelstrom. It was unlikely that any of my family were alive. A demon called Kalona Ayeliski claimed to have sucked the blood of a woman I remembered only as Uni Lisi, a term of respect meaning Grandmother of Many Children, and possibly actually my own grandmother or great-grandmother. The demon had been one of the Sunnayi Edahi, the invisible nightgoers in Cherokee tradition. The demon claimed to have killed the grandmother who had taught me to kill. I had believed that the woman I remembered as Grandmother was dead. But demons weren’t known for telling the truth.

“Like, how much older?” Alex asked. “Jane’s a woman. Women don’t like to talk about their ages.”

I might have laughed or rolled my eyes, but this was deadly serious, vitally important, and my headache was still pretty bad. Eye rolling was out.

“I’m telling you my history, my deepest, most personal story.” He looked at me now, his golden eyes intense beneath hawk-wing brows. He pushed away the fruit cobbler and bent his elbows on the table, his fingers interlaced. Long fingers, very slender. Familiar. I clenched my fists together beneath the table. I didn’t know the PsyLED cop who claimed kinship, but he seemed quiet, wary, contained, as if holding down emotional reactions until he could deal with them later, privately. Almost shooting me, a future confrontation with his boss about that attempted shooting, had to be weighing heavily on him, yet there was nothing of that in his demeanor.

“I’m telling you this because I hope you are my sister and there is no way to prove or disprove that hope unless I share everything with you. Things I have not discussed with anyone in decades.”

I nodded, that peculiar, Tsalagi chin jut of affirmation.

“I was born on the Nunna Daul Tsuny. The Trail of Tears.”

No one was eating. No one was even breathing.

“My mother told me that my five-year-old sister had been killed by soldiers after she attacked one of them with a knife. It was the lie they told the soldiers to keep them from searching for her. I learned later that my sister had attacked a man who raped a Cherokee woman, and grievously wounded him. The leader of our clan had forced my skinwalker sister into the form of a bobcat and drove her into the snow to save her from the soldiers.” He knew too much. He knew things I didn’t. Or claimed things.

But . . . it fit. It all fit.

“Who was the leader of your clan?” I asked, my words as soft as a speaker of The People.

“She goes by the name Hayalasti Sixmankiller.”

It was an interesting choice of names he fed me. Hayalasti was one of the Cherokee names for “knife.” If Hayalasti was the woman I knew so long ago, then I had been present for the deaths of two of the six men she killed.

“I just call her Uni Lisi,” he added and smiled. “She scared me to death when I was a child.” He pulled a cell phone from his pocket and placed it on the table between us. “Call her. She is still alive. She and a small group of her family and clan moved back to the Appalachian Mountains about seventy years ago.”

Still alive . . . Small group of her family and clan . . .

I smiled, a twitch of my lips. I took a breath that moved air over my tongue, through my nose, filled my parched lungs. He scented of the truth. Yet, though everything this man said could be truth, and would fulfill the deepest unrecognized longings of my heart, nothing—absolutely nothing—could be proven. What he thought was truth could be lies he believed. “My . . . our mother? Human or skinwalker?”

His face fell into a vision of dour grief, old but potent. “Our mother was skinwalker-born, though she lacked the ability to shift and therefore aged as a human. She died while I was in the West. She was seventy-five years old, in good health, but one morning she simply did not wake.” He seemed about to say more, but fell silent.

I looked at Eli and Alex, who were watching me. Kindness on their faces. Kindness that made tears prick my lids. I pushed away from the table without touching the cell. “Eat your cobbler. Leo will be up at dusk. Alex has sent an official request to bring a visitor. For now, I’m getting some sleep.” Looking at Eli, I communicated a lot of things in one glance before going to my room, where I stripped and fell onto my bed. I didn’t expect to sleep, but I did, dreams like a vortex of head pain and possibilities and half-recalled bloody memories.

My hand holding the crosshatched hilt of a knife. Bloody. Blood everywhere. Just like my entire life.

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I laid out the slim black pants, black jacket, and white silk men’s-style dress shirt on the bed. Added a silk scarf and black dancing shoes. The straps over the instep gave me excellent balance in case of unexpected attack, and the heels gave me an extra three inches over my six feet in height. With my weapons, I’d look lean, mean, and scary. It was what Madame Melisende, Modiste du les Mithrans, my business and formal clothes designer, called dangerous business dressy, meaning it had slits, fake pockets, and loops, for weapons. I took a fast shower, pulled my hair up, and braided it into a fighting queue, so tight it made my head ache, but in a different way from the headache before my nap. I stuck silver and ash wood stakes into the braided topknot bun like a deadly crown. Satisfied that the hair was less of a weapon than it otherwise could be, I started dressing.