Staying power? Why those particular words? They were too close to what that reporter had said about Reid in that awful article.

“What I meant…” she began, only to have him grin at her.

“I know what you meant. Something more significant.”

“Right.”

“You weren’t talking about my ability to—”

“Not at all,” she said quickly. “I’m sure that’s…”

He waited, his eyebrows raised.

“Fine,” she mumbled.

“Better than fine.”

“Right. Spectacular.”

He grinned. “Exactly.”

“I LOVE EVERYTHING about this house except the lack of a dishwasher,” Madeline said when they’d finished dinner and cleared the table. She’d sent Lori off to rest and Reid had offered to help with the cleanup.

“It’s original,” Madeline continued. “Very forties. She bought that old stove from a place that restores them. She’ll let me keep a microwave on the counter, but heaven forbid one of the precious cabinets be taken out to make room for a dishwasher.”

He looked around at the brightly colored kitchen. The walls were yellow, the cabinets white, the tiles red and white with splashes of yellow.

“This suits her,” he said.

“I agree.”

He reached for a dish cloth and grabbed the first plate she put in the rack. “I thought you’d look different.”

“Sick, you mean?” she asked.

“Something like that.”

“That will come. Right now most of the symptoms aren’t visible. I have some bruising on my torso—a sign that my liver isn’t working well. I’ll look worse as the disease progresses.”

“Should I not be asking about this?”

“I don’t mind talking about it,” she told him. “It’s a part of my life now.”

And her death. He’d never known anyone who was dying before. Gloria was old and had come close to death, but this was different. Madeline was still in her early thirties.

“You seem calm,” he said.

“Some days.”

“I don’t think I’d be calm.”

She smiled. “You never know what you’re capable of until it happens. I was in shock and didn’t know what to do. Lori handled pretty much everything. She came to the doctor with me, asked all the right questions. My husband left and she’s the one who bullied the attorney to make sure I didn’t get screwed.”

“He left because of you getting sick?”

“Oh, yeah. It was charming.”

“I’m sorry,” Reid said, feeling awkward.

“Me, too. At least we didn’t have kids. Leaving me when things got tough was bad enough, but leaving them…” She rinsed a glass. “Okay, this is officially time to change the subject. Let’s talk about something happy.”

Just then Lori stepped into the kitchen. “I can help,” she said.

Madeline sighed. “No, you can’t. You cooked dinner. We’re cleaning up. Go rest.”

“I’m not tired.”

“Then watch TV. Read a book. Contemplate the ever expanding universe.”

“I’m going,” Lori muttered and left.

Reid stared after her. “She’s acting weird, even for her.”

Madeline smiled as if she knew a secret. “It will pass.” She rinsed another plate and handed it to him. “Lori is really special.”

“I agree.”

“I wouldn’t want to see her get hurt.”

Okay, so he wasn’t as quick on the uptake as he could have been. Madeline wasn’t making conversation. She was probing and warning.

Normally that sort of thing made him want to run into the night, but now he found himself willing to have the conversation. Why was that?

He supposed some of it was that he liked Lori. He liked talking with her, annoying her, even kissing her. The kissing had been really good. Better than good. Under other circumstances he would have taken things further.

Need filled him. It had been a hell of a long time since he’d gotten laid. Under the circumstances, it was going to be a while longer. After that damn article, he wasn’t exactly eager to be with anyone. Not when he knew what the woman in question would be thinking. But Lori was different. She was…

He became aware of Madeline staring at him.

“Sorry,” he said. “What was the question?”

“I didn’t ask one.”

“Right. You were going to warn me to stay away from Lori.”

“Now why would I do a thing like that?” She began rinsing flatware. “I’m the oldest. It wasn’t easy for Lori when we were kids. I was smarter, prettier, more popular.” She paused and wrinkled her nose. “Gee, that makes me sound like an egotistical bitch. But it’s true. Mom was drunk all the time, Dad was gone. He ran off while she was pregnant with Lori. We didn’t have any money and it was hard. Add to that the fact that Lori grew up in my shadow. It’s no surprise that she can’t decide if she loves me or hates me.”

Reid stared at her. “Lori doesn’t hate you.”

“I know. That’s what’s so great about her. She could and no one would blame her. Least of all me. But she doesn’t. She invited me to come live with her as soon as she found out about my disease. When I hesitated, she physically packed all my stuff herself and hired the movers. She’s my rock.”

She reached for a pot. “This has got to be so hard on her. I’m the reason her childhood sucked, she loves me more than anyone in the world and I’m dying. How on earth is she supposed to reconcile that?”

Reid didn’t know what to do with all the information Madeline had dumped on him, but he didn’t doubt it was true. He could feel it in his gut.

“How did you figure all this out?” he asked. “Lori didn’t tell you.”

“Of course not. She wouldn’t want to burden me with what she wrestles with. But I watch and listen. She’s so much more than she believes she can be.”

“I know.”

She looked at him. “I thought you might. So what are you going to do about her?”

“I have no idea.”

Lori wasn’t his type. She wasn’t the kind of woman to enjoy a hot night and move on. He wasn’t good for anything else. Which meant avoiding her was the best solution for both of them.

Yet he found himself wanting to be with her. Not just in bed, but out of it as well.

“You’ll figure it out,” Madeline told him. “Just try not to hurt her. She’s more fragile than she looks.”

He thought Lori was a rock, but maybe there was more to her than just sarcasm and being everyone’s source of strength. Maybe there were sides of her no one saw.

“I don’t know what’s going to happen,” he admitted. “This isn’t the sort of thing I’m any good at.”

“Then maybe it’s time you learned.”

REID SAT IN HIS OFFICE at the sports bar and went through invoices. He generally passed any paperwork to the three assistant managers who really ran the place, but today, for some reason, he wanted to feel useful.

He sorted the paperwork by vendor, then went onto his computer and compared this month’s bills with those from the previous three months. He wasn’t sure what he was looking for but it seemed a logical way to figure out if anyone was trying to hide kickbacks or stealing.

He heard footsteps in the hallway.

“I swear, I saw him,” a woman said as she and her friend walked past his office on the way to the restrooms. “He’s so good-looking. And I don’t care what that bitch reporter said. He was great in bed.”

“I thought so, too. It could have been a little longer, but then it always could have been a little longer.”

They laughed. The sound was cut off when the bathroom door swung shut behind them.

Reid turned his attention back to the computer, but his concentration was shot.

He had no idea who those women were or when he might have slept with them. For all he knew, they’d had a threesome. At least they hadn’t been complaining about his technique.

But that wasn’t much comfort. He turned off his computer and left the paperwork on the desk. Nothing felt right anymore, he thought as he grabbed his jacket and headed out. He needed something to do with his day—something that mattered. Pretending to run the sports bar and hiding out at Gloria’s didn’t cut it.

He drove east, crossing Lake Washington, then turned aimlessly through Bellevue. He stopped in front of a large sporting goods store and stared at the display. God, he missed baseball. Sports had always been a way for him to escape. They had given him purpose and a goal.

He grabbed his cell phone and dialed a familiar number.

“What’s up?” he said when Cal answered.

“Not much. Where are you?”

“Not at the sports bar,” Reid told him. “Is there a place in Seattle where kids need sports equipment? Like a school in a poor part of town or a club or something?”

“Sure. Hold on.” Reid heard typing, then Cal continued, “There are a couple of after-school places where poor kids go. They probably need supplies and equipment. Why?”

“I gotta do something. You got an address?”

Cal read it off, along with a phone number. After Reid hung up with Cal, he called and asked to speak to the director. A woman got on the phone.

“Do you have a yard there where kids play?” he asked.

“Yes.” She sounded cautious.

“How’s the equipment situation? I’d like to send over some balls and bats and other stuff. You could use it?”

“Of course. Always. Who is this?”

He hung up.

Two hours later he was parked across the street from a beat-up old building. About thirty kids gathered around the large delivery truck. They cheered when the equipment was unloaded.

“I don’t understand,” an older woman was saying. “This man just called and asked if we needed it. Are you sure it’s free?”

“Everything’s been paid for,” the delivery guy said. “Just sign that you received it and we’re good.”

The woman smiled, then signed.

Reid shifted into first and drove away.

CHAPTER NINE

REID ARRIVED back at Gloria’s house to find Lori waiting for him. It was after four and her shift had officially ended. Sandy’s car was parked in the large circular drive, which meant Lori had no reason to stay.

Except to see him.

Watching those kids with their new sports equipment had gone a long way to making him feel less like a loser. Having Lori hanging around to see him cemented his good feelings.

“You stayed,” he said as he smiled at her.

“I have to talk to you. Privately.”

He liked the sound of that. For reasons he couldn’t explain he kept remembering that kiss. He’d wanted to repeat it, but had never found the right opportunity.

He followed Lori to the back of the house. There was a small den, with a television and stereo equipment on one wall.

Lori shut the door behind him. He moved toward her expectantly. She stopped him with a single sentence.

“Some TV producer called here, looking for you,” she said.

His desire froze and disappeared.

“What did you tell him?”

She pressed her lips together. “Her. I lied. I said I didn’t know who you were and that I had no idea what she was talking about.”

“Thanks.”

“Not thanks. I don’t want to have to do that sort of thing. The reporter looking to ambush someone was bad enough. Now this.”

“I can’t stop them. What do you want me to do?”

“Not be this way. I don’t get it. I can’t begin to understand who or what you are. On the one hand, you have moments of kindness and intelligence. On the other hand, you seem willing to have sex with most women in this country. Or any country, I’m guessing. None of this makes sense.”

Her energy went beyond annoyance. She seemed as much confused as frustrated.

She put her hands on her h*ps as she faced him. “How can you be so interested in volume? How can you not care about the person inside?”

“Because for you it’s all about the person inside,” he said.

“Of course. I want to have a relationship to go with my sexual encounter. That probably sounds really backwards to you.”

“It doesn’t,” he said as he wondered about the men in her life. Who were they and why wasn’t she married? Had she been the one to resist or hadn’t anyone asked?

“Are you seeing anyone?” he asked.

“What? No, but that isn’t the point.”

“I get the point. I was just curious.”

She folded her arms over her chest. “We’re not talking about me. Explain the thought process, Reid,” she said. “Why on earth do you act this way?”

There were a hundred different answers he could give. Slick lines he’d used before. But he didn’t want to share any of them with Lori, so he settled for the truth.

“I’m not the kind of guy women marry,” he said. “I’m not the kind of guy women get serious with.”

Lori waited a few seconds, opened her mouth, then closed it. “That’s it? You’re a dog when it comes to women because it’s not your fault?”

“I’m not a dog. I’m very clear on what’s going to happen and what isn’t. I tell the truth.”