“Go on, Teia,” Daelos said. “You know that Breaker blamed Andross Guile for trying to block him from joining the Blackguard. And we know Breaker got drunk that night. With how rash he always was, I don’t see what’s so hard—”

“Is,” Teia interjected.

“What?” Daelos asked.

“How dare you give up on Kip. Go away, the both of you. I’m sick of you.”

Daelos rolled his eyes like she was being an unreasonable woman. It made her want to show him what she would do if she were actually unreasonable. On the other hand, Cruxer simply paled. He pushed back from the railing. Teia knew he’d only come over to check up on her, like a good commander does. But good intentions don’t cover everything. They left without saying a word.

You’re being rude and unfair and you should apologize, T.

But she didn’t.

Andross Guile said he’d mocked Kip that night, as he always did. He had no love for the boy, he’d admitted. Perhaps he shouldn’t have said anything in the aftermath of a battle. But how was he to know Kip was drunk? He’d never imagined Kip would attack him.

Gavin Guile and Andross’s slave had tried to intervene. Kip had stabbed Gavin accidentally, and when Gavin Guile fell overboard, Kip had been so distraught, he jumped in after him.

And there the matter rested. Watch Captain Karris White Oak—or was it Watch Captain Guile now that she’d married Gavin?—had gone insane, shouting that they must be wrong, that Andross was lying. Teia thought the woman was going to attack Andross physically until Commander Ironfist had intervened and literally carried Karris off the deck. She’d not emerged since.

No one else contradicted the Red. There had been more than a few tense conversations between Commander Ironfist and the Blackguards who had been assigned to protect Gavin that night. The Prism had ordered the men to bed, and who would have thought he would be in danger on the very night he’d proven his heroism once again? He’d killed a god!

No, Teia had tried to say, Kip did that.

It seemed somehow small to set the record straight with the Prism lost, and they looked at her like she was spitting on his grave. The man had been adored, and everyone remaining in the fleet had proven their loyalty to him that very day by fighting at his side.

That didn’t lessen the burden of guilt on the Blackguards. They’d failed. They were coming home, while their charge was dead. It was a blot they would never erase.

The murmur of voices below her chased out any further thoughts. Teia glanced around at the sailors. Mostly men, the sailors were careful to be discreet about their ogling of the female Blackguards—or had grown careful since Essel had broken one’s nose—but they still did it. But they didn’t ogle Teia. Hipless, breastless, short, and with short hair, when she wasn’t invisible, the most Teia could aspire to was being a mascot taken under the rough men’s wings. Nine out of ten of whom she could beat to a pulp, but they didn’t know that. Right now, though, she was thankful to be ignored.

The cabin right below her was Andross Guile’s. She’d been eavesdropping here every chance she got for the past week. She interspersed her spying with clambering up the rigging and taking pointers from the sailors, learning a bit of their work. She’d also pretended to pray here, sitting very still. She’d pretended to mourn, too. This was where Kip had jumped or been pushed into the sea. The pretense at tears had turned to real tears, once. She’d liked Kip more than she’d thought.

As she was sitting on deck, Commander Ironfist approached her. She moved to get up, but he motioned for her to stay in place.

He stood with her for a long minute, and she would have appreciated his silent companionship if she hadn’t been worried that he would figure out exactly why she’d chosen this spot.

Finally, he said, “Kip—Breaker—asked me to make sure your manumission papers go through. And I will. You know you’re one of the best inductees. You know the Blackguard is hurting for good people. But it’s your choice. When I was your age, I took an oath because I was expected to, not because I wanted to or thought it was right. I won’t do that to you, Teia.”

And then he left.

She folded her legs and thought about taking her manumission—and what? Going home? Getting married to a shopkeeper? Learning a trade? What trade? It was too strange, too much of a leap after what she’d been experiencing in the last months. She put it off to think about later, and strained to hear Andross Guile’s voice. At first, he’d never had his window open, but in the last few days it had been open every time. In the mornings were her best chances to hear anything at all. Once the wind kicked up, it was impossible. But so far she’d heard nothing in seven days. Mostly it had been innocuous orders to his room slave, Grinwoody, the old Parian whom it seemed Andross Guile trusted deeply.

But it was another wasted day. Teia heard little. Andross and Grinwoody had worked together so long that their speech was lacunic, full of understood ellipses.

“Any evidence he’s not deluding himself?”

“None. Of course, when we get evidence, it will be too late for one of us.”

“And too late for us, either way. Damn,” Andross said. His voice was louder. He was standing at the porthole. “It was that close, Grinwoody. Its hilt almost in my hands.”

“It was my failure, my lord.”

“No, you saved my life, again.”

“My strength is not that which once it was, my lord. I allowed myself to be surprised.”

Teia scowled and drew her gray inductee’s cloak close about her for warmth. Grinwoody allowed himself to be surprised? By Kip? So Kip had attacked them? Was it possible? Kip wouldn’t have done something so foolish, would he?

Yes, of course he would. But attempt murder? No, not Kip. He might lash out to hurt, but not to cripple, not to kill, and she’d seen him furious.

“Look on the bright side, my lord. You won’t be Freed this year.” Grinwoody’s tone was whimsical, but it chilled Teia. Was Andross Guile planning on breaking the halo? Why would Grinwoody announce it so blithely?

A hand emerged from the porthole and a homing pigeon sprang into the air in a rush of feathers, startling Teia, but no one appeared to pay attention either to her surprise or to the bird—there had been many of the latter sent in the last few days.

Then the voices faded as Andross closed the porthole. Teia wanted to get up and leave immediately, but she was well aware that she was sitting on the deck immediately above Andross’s room. Even with her slight weight, the wood might groan from her weight shifting. She waited a few more minutes, pretending to meditate. Kip had been her training partner. He’d gambled something—she still didn’t know what—to win her papers from Andross Guile. And then he’d promptly tried to free her. He’d listened to her when they’d talked about strategy, made her feel like she, a slave, might have something smart to contribute for the first time in her life.

Teia realized her fist was closed over the little vial of olive oil she wore, squeezing it in a death grip. She loosened her fingers from the symbol of her slavery. The gift had been a threat and a reminder from Aglaia Crassos: olive oil, ostensibly to ease her work in the slave brothels. Olive oil, to keep her alive through thirty to fifty men a day. Whenever Teia thought she didn’t have any strength left, she touched that little reminder of slavery. Of what could be. Of what Kip had promised to put behind her, forever.