Author: Teresa Mummert

Chapter Thirteen

DON’T FREAK OUT.” Sarah put her hand on my chest and stopped me from entering the checkout at the grocery store.

“Okay, Sarah, you can’t grab my boobs and ask me not to freak out. That’s just weird.”

“What? No!” She pulled her hand back and grabbed a tabloid magazine from the end of the counter. “This!” She pointed to a giant picture of my face.

“What?” I snatched the magazine from her hand, turning it over several times like the image would disappear. “This is bad. This is so bad.”

“It might be. See what it says.” She grabbed another magazine from the rack and flipped it open to the article.

“I didn’t do an interview. How do they have this?” I asked, pointing to the quotes directly from me. It finally dawned on me. . . . The man at the Damaged concert back in Lakeland. The guy with the camera. “Shit. That weird guy from the concert. I didn’t know he was a reporter. They can’t do this without permission, right?” I asked. Nothing in the story was actually that bad. It mentioned that I was Tucker’s girlfriend and that I was touring with him. That didn’t seem so terrible.

“We should let them see this before they find it on their own . . . or before Donna finds it.” Sarah grabbed the rest of the magazines, and we checked out as quickly as possible. I didn’t see why it was such a big deal. In fact, I was certain Tucker would get a laugh out of it. I knew he wasn’t a fan of these magazines, but this story happened to be true this time.

I slipped onto the bus, and the guys were going about their morning routines, which consisted of nursing their hangovers and Chris very unceremoniously kicking his one-night stand off the bus.

“Breaking Donna’s rules?” I raised an eyebrow at Chris who shook his head with a guilty grin. “She’s out getting her fancy coffee or some shit.”

I shook my head and sat my bags of groceries on the floor, pulling out the contents and slipping them into the cupboards. Tucker came out of the bathroom, his hair an adorable mess and his basketball shorts slung low on his hips.

“Morning, sweetheart,” he said as he gave me a kiss on the cheek and started helping me unload the groceries. He pulled out a magazine, and his eyes grew large as he looked at my face on the cover. “What the hell is this?”

“Don’t be mad. Some guy was talking to me at your concert. I had no idea who he was.”

Tucker flipped through the pages and glanced over the interview.

“Why would I be mad?” He slowly ripped the cover off the magazine and dug through the kitchen drawer, pulling out a roll of tape. “I like this picture of you.” He smiled and went back to his bunk to tape the picture above his bed with the others. I sighed, thankful he didn’t react the way Sarah had feared.

“You guys hungry?” I asked as Eric grabbed a coffee mug from the sink.

“Coffee?” He held the cup out at me with the saddest little puppy-dog face.

“I’ll get right on it.” I took the mug and sat it on the counter. He gave me a thankful smile, and I began preparing the coffeemaker for a fresh pot. The door opened and Donna stepped inside holding a drink carrier full of overpriced lattes. She sat it down on the table and pulled off her oversized sunglasses. Her eyes landed on me and narrowed before she dug around in her giant hobo purse and pulled out a copy of the magazine with my article. She held it up, not saying a word. I turned back to the coffeemaker and continued to fill it with water.

“I’ve already seen it,” I said, not looking at her. “So has Tucker.”

“It’s a great picture,” Tucker spoke up, sliding his hand around my back and resting his hand on my hip.

“So I guess it was worth losing half of your fan base?” Donna shot back. I spun around. “We had discussed this, Tucker.” Her eyes narrowed and landed on my boyfriend.

“Discussed what?” I asked, looking to him for answers. He blew out a long breath.

“Donna thinks we should keep our relationship a secret. She’s afraid our female fans will lose interest.”

“Not a secret. I think it shouldn’t exist.”

“What?” I knew she had reservations about me joining the guys for the tour, but this was insane.

“It’s nothing personal.”

“Nothing personal? This is my boyfriend. I don’t see how it could be any more personal.”

She turned her attention to Tucker, completely ignoring me.

“I have been fielding calls all morning. Calls from everyone from news reporters to Cass’s father and everyone in between. This is very bad.”

“Wait . . . Did you say my father?” Suddenly I felt like I was spinning. . . . In that one sentence the entire world just imploded.

“This isn’t a game, Tucker. Is it really worth it to play house with some girl? This is your career.”

“She isn’t just some girl. I love her, and she is more important than any of this shit.”

“I’m sorry. Did you say my dad called you?”

Donna rolled her eyes at me as she tapped her foot. The other members of the band stood in shock watching our fight. Tucker continued to argue his point while Donna shrieked and moaned.

“Enough,” Eric yelled, and the bus went silent. I leaned back against the counter, struggling to catch my breath as a panic attack began to take over. “Cass is trying to find out about her dad. Can you not see what you’re doing to her?” Suddenly everyone’s eyes were on me.

“He left his number. Why is this such a big issue?” Donna waved her hands around dramatically. I slowly raised my eyes to meet hers.

“I haven’t seen my father in years. . . . Since I was little,” I said quietly as I rubbed over my arm nervously. I hated admitting that I fit the stereotype she had clearly pinned on me: poor little lost girl with daddy issues. I expected her to smile, but instead she was sympathetic.

“That wasn’t fair of me. I didn’t know.”

“It’s fine,” I said, looking away. I needed to get out of there. I needed some air before my lungs exploded. I pushed my way through the group and stumbled out of the front door. Tucker followed and placed his hand on the small of my back.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t think.”

I held up my hand to stop him from talking. I knew he wasn’t trying to hurt me, but all I cared about in that moment was keeping the world from caving in on me. My father had disappeared to New Orleans when I was six and never returned, leaving my mother and me destitute and confused, struggling to survive while he was off living the single life. What could he possibly want from me now, so many years later?

I shook away the sadness, forcing back the tears that threatened to spill over my cheeks. “I always knew he would come back one day; I just thought it would be while my mother was still alive.” My heart was in the pit of my stomach. Tucker wrapped his arms around me, and that contact, that feeling of safety, caused me to let go of everything I was holding back. The tears flowed freely as sobs wracked my body. This wasn’t supposed to happen. I was happy now, and my life was finally falling into place.

Tucker laid his cheek on the top of my head as his hand rubbed over my back soothingly.

“This doesn’t change anything. You don’t have to call him back. He doesn’t deserve it.”

I pulled back, brushing my hair away from my wet face.

“I have to call him, Tucker. He’s my dad.” I couldn’t understand his logic. Why would I blow him off? I had wanted to see his face again since the moment he stepped out of my life.

“You don’t have to do anything, Cass. He doesn’t even deserve to hear your voice. You’re going to get hurt.”

“I’m used to it.” I walked around him and made my way around the bus. I wanted to talk to Sarah. She would understand. I knew Tucker didn’t want to see me upset, but that was something in life that was unavoidable. I was willing to take the chance.

I banged on the bus door and waited impatiently for someone to answer. Derek pulled open the door and motioned with a tilt of his head to the back of the bus. Sarah leaned out of the bathroom where she was styling her hair to see who was at the door.

“Hey! I was gonna come get you in a few and see if you wanted to do makeovers.” She was beaming from ear to ear. Her smile faded as she saw my tearstained face. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.” I swiped the tears from my cheeks and gave her a smile. “I was just overwhelmed.”

She made her way down the hallway of the bus. Derek gave her a look and nodded, going to the back of the bus to give us privacy. I shoved my hands in my jean pockets.

“How are things going with him?” I asked as she motioned for us to sit at the small kitchen table.

“Things are good. You want to tell me what happened? Is it Tucker? Is it that bitch Donna?”

I laughed and shook my head.

“Not really. I mean . . . yeah, she sucks, but it’s not them.”

“Then what is it? Spit it out already!”

“My dad is trying to contact me.”

Sarah sat back in her seat, her eyes going wide.

“I take it that’s a bad thing.”

“No. I mean . . . I don’t really know. I’ve been dreaming of this day for years.”

She nodded and reached over the table, placing her hand on mine. Half her hair was curled, the other side hung in a tangled mess. I laughed.

“You have the power here. You don’t have to see him if you don’t want to. You can call and see where it goes from there. Just be careful. There is no telling what he wants.”

“I know.” The thought of him wanting something from me tied my stomach in knots. I wasn’t ready to be hurt by someone else I loved, but I needed to hear his voice.

There was a knock on the door and Sarah grinned.

“Come in, Tucker,” she called out, and the door pulled open. Tucker smiled when his eyes met mine.

“I guess I should go and let you finish getting ready.” I pushed up from the table and walked toward the door.

“I’m here if you need to talk,” Sarah replied as we made our way back outside.

“Tucker.” I turned to face him, taking his hands in mine. “I need you to be supportive, no matter what I decide to do.”

He nodded, looking down at the asphalt.

“If he hurts you . . .” His eyes met mine and I sighed, not needing him to finish his thought. He pulled a small slip of paper from his pocket and held it out to me. I took it from him. My eyes danced over the phone number scrawled out in Tucker’s handwriting. I looped my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek as I gave him an appreciative hug.

“Thank you.”

“Don’t thank me yet. I’m not sure this is going to end the way you are hoping.”

“When did you become so pessimistic?”

He laughed sardonically and ran his hand over his hair.

“When I lost everything I had loved.”

The pain in his eyes nearly killed me. I pushed my forehead against his.

“I’m not going anywhere, Tucker.” I pressed my lips against his, and he slid his hands into my hair, holding me against him for an extra moment.

“Just promise me, no matter what happens, you won’t let him break you. You’re a lot stronger than I give you credit for, but I have seen you defeated, and I don’t ever want to watch you go through that again.”

“No matter what happens, we have each other, and that is all I need.”

“Band meeting.” Donna stuck her head out of the door. I rolled my eyes and looked back at Tucker.

“At least you won’t have to deal with her for a little while.”

I laughed and pulled him in for a hug. He kissed my forehead and retreated back inside of the bus. A few minutes later the band filed out with Donna behind them.